Crystal Wildstar and Nickolas Wildstar

00:04 Hello, my name is Nickolas WildStar. And I am 38 years old in human years. Today's date is Sunday, February 23rd, 2020 and we are located in Fresno, California. The my interviewer partner's name is Crystal WildStar. Who is my wife?

00:30 Hi, my name is Crystal WildStar. I am 36 years old or years young I should say today's date is Sunday, February 23rd 2020. I am currently in Fresno California. My interview partner is Nickolas WildStar and my relationship to him is that he's my husband, now that we know each other.

00:59 I guess the reason why I brought you here today is because I figured it would give us a intimate way to document our experiences human beings here on this planet than and put it in the Time Capsule of life and immortalize who we are, you know, because we are building a legacy here on this planet as much as possible, you know with me running for mayor Fresno and with you, you know and lightning the world with your abilities. We have a lot to do and now that we brought a child into this world. We want to make sure to wear creating Milestones farm. So I figured we could talk about our experience of what we've encountered so far to get to this point.

01:51 Wow, that's beautiful. Yes. I think that's a beautiful idea. I believe we do have a lot to say and this is a great way to express. Yeah. I just I guess I'd like to start off just the first and foremost is being a new mom and also as well as celebrating our recently celebrating a theory wedding anniversary just made teen sister last week and this is truly been a wonderful journey and just learning you just watching you grow and deciding to move it to the next level to have a little little little baby boy nice little addition and just the process of being a mom is just it's amazing. The whole pregnancy itself was just an amazing.

02:50 Amazing journey and it's how it was that he was pretty easy on me. I'd never too much morning sickness and everything like that. And that's why I really really hope it was wonderful to see something like a product of our love inside of me and watching him move around 7 to another being and also learning to incorporate, you know my schedule with the new baby then you know, and also being a supportive wife while you go through this this political Journey. We definitely got a groom him to you know, be a contributing member of society and one of the things that I get asked is you know, why do what I'm doing and if we have a family y start a family and what does looked at as putting

03:50 Do ourselves in danger, you know, what would make you feel brave enough to want to do that with me?

04:00 I believe it's a personal Journey. It's very disheartening to see you know, the news that you know, African Americans getting shot, you know, and I know have an African-American baby and it's just you know, when you poke the bear Easter up the you know the pot it just seems like all eyes are on us and it just seems like you know, there are people that don't want us to succeed and especially I feel you're going up a steep slope and that you know and itself can present a danger, you know with your activism going out there. You know, I love the fact that you're waking up the masses but it's also the other people that are involved behind the scenes that don't want you to succeed or for whatever physical reason that in itself can be very terrifying because they like to retaliate, you know, especially with the court cases and things like that.

05:00 Didn't you know police interactions, you know, these guys are trigger-happy. So of course, it'll be very scary especially for new mom, you know, raising a child in that type of environment with the odds being against us. I guess that's why I tend to face that fear sometimes and in my own personal struggles, you know, it is difficult to hear and specially when people tell me I'm going to get shot. You know my flight cheese. Why would you run a project that upon me? You know, and it's so sad that we live in this world where there's so much possibilities and so much love but yet people tend to focus on the negative and with what you're doing with

05:50 Changing people and enlightening I guess their way of life by providing insights. It is a challenge for them spiritually as well, you know, because a lot of in a lot of us have been indoctrinated with the dogma of religion, you know, and you and I have the opportunity to break away from those constraints and we see that happening all around us with others. But yet at the same time, we're having to untether them, you know, and it is difficult not only with the political path, but with the religious path and I do my best to separate the two, you know by not involving my spirituality with my you know, political aspirations, but a lot of people tend to 12 Polk that out of me and you know,

06:50 Invoke that so I appreciate you doing the best that you can just dig.

06:58 You know be an expression of that positivity that I need to be that Bedrock that holds me down because it is a difficult journey and

07:12 I just want to say thank you because I do love you for that and I appreciate everything that you do to just be the woman in my life to provide that balance cuz it's being the type of man that I am picking. You know, we've had our ups and downs throughout the eight years that we've been together nine years actually is married nine years together. And do you know you've you've

07:47 Giving me so much strength in so many ways and I think a lot of men need to be educated on how to be better men but it starts first with having a better woman. So I just want to encourage you to continue to inspire other women out there as much as possible because they are looking for that empowerment from someone such as yourself and you are going to play an instrumental role in that growth for them as well. Thank you very much. I really believe what actually kept me going is just you know being with you as motivate me to not act in fear all the time. There's things I was just I was terrified of him, you know, I listen to you and you like I don't worry about that, you know, and when I let go of that idea of worried I was able to you know live

08:47 Life and not worry about it and it literally took care of his self and I know often times I'm a project a bit of fear and worry when there shouldn't be, you know, I really should just be a main concern that I I really don't want to turn that concern into any type of anything where it'll you know, just how can I say this just limit you you know to what you feel you need to be in life. I also learned really it's about balance. It's about releasing and gaining, you know that there is much as I would like to have just cookie cutter perfect house and home and everything like that. This is the life path I chose, you know, especially with that name WildStar us a lot and it's like I'm living up to it. I mean I still can maintain a bit of that but at the same time I'm happy because our life is not Dull lot of people that have that picture perfect, you know life they

09:47 Relieving boring lives I have to say, I mean not all them course, but from what I observed, you know, it's is very uneventful life that I can say. I love you for like wow you're doing now your fly and are you going here? So I just I really just take that and I'm liking what I can enjoy this and where can I incorporate, you know, just me and just being happy and where can I learn, you know, how can I learn to enjoy this? I go okay with this release the fear and the people that take the most risk have the most exciting lives and I want to live by that and you know, and I thank you for you know, just being who you are to help motivate me to just

10:26 Sometimes you say I don't care. Let's just go let's just fly and I'm like, well, it's kind of scary but then end up having a good time. So yes, I do and that it also empowers me as a woman. And of course it's being at this next level with a leather little baby. Here are the timing a child. I feel I am equipped with, you know enough knowledge to help new moms and women that are there single or with marriage in a relationship, you know to empower them to become, you know stronger and I probably wouldn't have gotten to that level had I not been with someone like you so I am empowered to just embraced by femininity sensuality cuz I was really really, you know conservative and just meeting you is like a just have fun, you know, and here I am. I'm having you know Wine & Readings. I do readings and I started discovering, you know my town.

11:26 Ears on and you've motivated me to do that because I was raised very religious Christian demonic stuff that you're doing, but I'm like, you know, I think God, you know, God gave me this gift, you know, why not use it, you know, I don't want to you know shun myself because this is something that I have in there I should use it and I seen how I've helped. Lots of people all around the world. Do you know calling me and it's just like wow, how did not really took that risk? I wouldn't have helped that person and it also in turn helps me and with that knowledge and that experience will make me stronger so I can help the both of us have him act with compassion and you know, and just and also have that tenacity that determination that you possess.

12:23 Yeah, that's why I said well, that's another thing I want to talk to you about because with I guess me being so strong-minded and being one of the people that is out there challenging the system in many ways. I know it can seem a bit difficult to deal with and many ways especially with me having to go to court and deal with trials like now, you know for videotaping and Court something stupid, but you know, they're doing their best like you said to make an example out of me and to bury me in that same system that is kept people such as us African Americans Mckenzie, press this entire time, you know, and there's more black people incarcerated in this country than anywhere else in the world or people in General Tso.

13:23 With me being someone is challenging the system in this establishment and attempting to overthrow it politically as well. It is a danger to them.

13:36 I don't want it to be a danger to us and that's what I want to teach. Our son is you're going to have to be brave. This is America. This is the land of the free. This is the home of the brave. He's going to have to express, you know bravery and being courageous and standing up for his ideals and his beliefs whatever day maybe you know, of course, we're positive people and we're going to encourage him to be a positive person. So we're hoping that those are going to be positive aspects of him that help wanted then share with others and that's what I feel like we need to focus on the most, you know,

14:22 Because a lot of people are going to see what we're doing as being something that causes corruption and into their lives, you know, it's going to change the way the people live. So how do we incorporate?

14:42 Those type of I guess principles into his life.

14:50 Without him having to be afraid.

14:53 Well

14:56 I I don't want him to do, you know CS like arguing over certain situations if we speak calmly to each other as we speak, lie to each other. I believe he'll see, you know, it can be a little tough, but I can see that they can handle it and I believe that's where he can get his confidence. Just how we handle certain certain circumstances not napping at each other not yelling or whatever getting arguing arguing over over stressful events. And you know if he sees that he's like, oh, I guess I can do this too and I could find me a partner that would understand me and that's what I want to see we have to leave by example as much as I want to protect them from everything. I understand I cannot and he's going to eventually find his own way in life and I have to just love him while he's doing that and continue to be that example cuz I honestly believe that's where parents go wrong. They they they force their ideas are in still heavy.

15:56 Ideal when you know in their their children's head saying this is how it has to be this out has to be and that child becomes a rebel because they have never really experienced that so I really just want to allow him to experience life and that's going to be the best teacher. You know, I am just I'm going to be that vessel to carry him through and you know, we got to take care of little guy and changes Peppers profile but it is if he sees that happiness not Joy while we're doing this, I think that's what will help him with his Chancellor. I believe he's going to live up to those expectations. And I know it's crazy, but we definitely are doing all the weekend is parents. I feel like to create a great human being so I just want to and

16:56 Do to keep being the wonderful mother that you are, you know, keep being a wonderful wife. The two have been wonderful friend that you've been because all of those energies all of those different patterns that you're creating. They're going to change the world and so many ways and we're starting to see the effects of it. I mean even with this being a in the parade today, you know, we're going to be in front of thousands of people, you know, and you know introducing ourselves to the world in many ways. So it's a coming out party for the evolved people of this world and we can unite them under the banner of Oneness with love. So I am thankful to the Creator for providing me such a loving partner is you

17:52 Thank you, and I'm very thankful to the universe will bring such a wonderful energy as yourself if she has a spirit being this vessel just here to just make moves. Sometimes. I move a little tough. Your moves are pretty tough. But I just I feel that we are we have this protected and you knowing it when the more I feel like that the more better I can approach these things. And I also thank you for you know, allowing me to go through my emotions. Do you know just having a baby and hormones and stuff, you know, I just being there throughout the birth, you know, I just

18:31 I could have picked a better partner as and then I'm sure he's going to and he's already enjoying this wonderful father, you know, so he's definitely has some big shoes to fill I'm very proud of you for all your accomplishments, you know, whether you win or not. You know, I mean we still it's always a lesson learned at the end of the day and that's what I want him to learn that too. So I'm as long as we're happy about a journey, you know, when or lose I think will always win and around some of the range but that's how I feel and I feel like you and I do despite the times where we had our setbacks. We tend to Spring Forward also another times and I feel like you know this year 2020 and to say an opportunity for us to just catapult forward in so many ways. So I just thank you for being behind me this and

19:31 Hard time and just pushing me, you know what this to get past that that the Finish Line because the election day is fast approaching and after that, you know, we'll see what happens but like you said win or lose we're still going to stay on this on this journey, and I'm going to do everything my partner to make sure that I'm making sure that you're successful as well. So if there's anything that I can do coerced, please always be open to let me know, you know, I can say, you know

20:10 The reassurance love just so you know, and and now the support is this great and I'm so appreciative you already doing that. So just continue doing that and you know, and I'll do my best to just so you know, if they are confident, you know, not only for myself you but also for our son thank you son in the room with you. Do you want to come and eat and speak directly to each other but maybe share some some bits of wisdom are things that you would hope that he hears in the future from you guys. Will Chancellor always do your best to be as understanding as possible as human beings. We can let our emotions get in the way sometimes of us hearing others and it's extremely imperative. I've learned for us and with communicating with each other.

21:10 Just listen and in doing so you can learn so much. So always listen and leave your heart and your mind open to other possibilities because we don't know it all the matter how much we know and you're going to know a lot I would like to say to you Chancellor is you know, don't just listen to what people tell you all you need to do this, you know, do your own research don't just so you know, follow the cheap, you know nor Follow the Leader question asked question. Yeah be the leader. Sometimes you may need to lead and sometimes you need to follow her also just being a team player is very important, but also do your research, you know, we went to take anything for face value we have to look deep and you know study that's what I did. That's what I had to do to, you know, break free from you know, what I I feel

22:10 Religious beliefs had unlimited me to being who I am now to help others. We have to jump in take those risks just like your father and just like me and a sense. You know, I'm just not as loud as he is, but, you know doesn't mean I'm not making a change for Denton and even mommy loves you and I pray that you find a nice nice person to share your life with and share your story. He loves you, too.

22:49 Who always be here for you and one way or another definitely remember nothing ever really dies. We're always Just Energy here and one form or another. So I think that's one thing we got to remember also is you know in evolving as human beings, we can't stay locked into this Emporia State of life. You know, it's very limiting its mess with the increase in vaccinations and let you know that I don't even trust their injecting children with things. I don't even know and you know, I have to fight that too that's really difficult being a new parent and finding there's new challenges that I have to to fight and research on what we'll do our part to change the world and make sure he doesn't have to worry about that.

23:49 Thank you. And thank the world think everyone thank the spirit of Oneness that allowed us to be here in to enjoy this moment in time Family without them instantly make you mad but you know, but I just love them without them. I wouldn't be here and thank you and I'm just leaving for Chancellor. Just that's a blessing the huge blessing to have a child. And here he is. So I'm just I'm thankful. I'm truly thankful for where I'm at right now. I'm into that.

24:24 And thank you.